I was one of the regular members from the early days and I spent a LOT of time in the drive. I was one of the first people to join, I saw it being built from the ground up, I witnessed the birth of the fake DML video and I witnessed the bullying/changing of edits/illegal's very uncomfortable comments
I also remember when the evidence was piling up that illegal was actually the one blocked, and yes a LOT of negative behaviour came from him. Looking back on it now and comparing it to here, that place was toxic. Having such a negative person around really drives a mob mentality through the roof. Even Dan stans would sway because he simply has a charismatic way of being offensive, or provocative.
I too don't have any receipts since I kind of faded from activity both in the drive and in the forum but the image of the drive is burned into my retinas. All of our chats were colour coded; each of us had a colour and the document was a mess of colours interlapping and switching. I believe illegal's was yellow? We all had those avatars that you made with Rinmaru's Anime Face Maker which was super popular at the timehttp://www.rinmarugames.com/playgame.ph ... face-maker
especially since there were versions of the fantastic foursome done by dan, I believe? and it was as we "were", if you will, or how we wanted to be, and it had our name, age, tumblr, all our information was there so that we kept track of who was who and we were very tight. As always, illegal was very mysterious and very crude; he would often say how he was watching gay porn to relax and he had a kind of disgusted attitude at the idea of female genitalia, which was umcorfortable. Like yeah I get you don't like it but he acted as though it was the literal worst thing on the planet (next to Dan
). He did indeed claim to be from Spain and work from home. Nobody really managed to get close to him apart from the other gay guy. They would both bash other people and Dan and be very big bullies. I would NOT be surprised if illegal has instigated much more than he pretends to.
I'm kind of ashamed even that his signature of Ursula, which he's had since I was active, was actually because of me. I and another member had a side blog on tumblr where we posted crack fics that were horror themed; Deppy were actually ghosts, Dan murdered his date, Dan turned into a giant moth, that kind of stuff. Dan even liked one of the fics, and it was also me that started Church of Dan and the 10 commandments and such. I had posted that Ursula gif at the end of a fic and he found it hilarious and used it on his signature ever since.
Looking back on it, a lot of us were straight-up bullies. Illegal never missed an opportunity to either insult Dan or "expose" them in any way with information that could out their relationship. It became a circus, a sort of "freak show" to point and laugh at as though we weren't people, or as though deppy weren't real people. It was a mob mentality of old pictures and screenshots, and it's so embarrassing now.
So in a way I'm very glad this forum exists. The atmosphere is so much more positive and tolerant, even if in illegal's mind it's kiss-ass and "fangirly". Most of us have come from those days so nothing is really new anymore, and we have no need to bully or mock them for it. If you dislike the boys as much as some of those members did, this is not the place for you.
I still have salt from the fans at the time who criticised us for having old screenshots but at the same time begged to see them in private message or anon ask on tumblr. I still claim that nothing in that drive was so secret that most members now don't know about. It was for archiving stuff already found, nothing was added that was kept secret from the rest.
While I think the boys have thicker skin than be offended at the fake DML, I regret it now and wish we hadn't done it, because we didn't have good intentions, we'd become mocking trolls who lost our compassion, as hippie-dippie as it sounds.