I love Karen taking Colin to pride. I'm kind of fascinated by her not telling Dan beforehand - obviously he wouldn't have wanted to go, what with his absolute and complete avoidance of all things that happened in his life prior to turning 18, but I wonder if her decision to go was impulsive or if she planned it and just wanted to surprise him with it while she was there or if she really did just do this for herself and not as a gesture toward Dan?
I also love Dan's interview, but I do feel like he misspoke on the topic of needing to come out to be happy. It's entirely valid for Dan, and I understand how it could be an empathetic blind spot for him, but I've already seen the insidious kind of backlash on my twitter feed where it's not people who are angry... it's just people who feel bad. Bad that the guy they're using as a role model just said there's something they need to do to be happy, and either they can't do it or they did do it and it didn't make them happier. It's fucking amazing and fills my heart with joy that Dan coming out to his family gave him that exhale-and-relax moment, but it's not a universal. Since thanks to
itasca00 I can actually quote it, I'm gonna do that:
D: I’d say that, firstly, you’ve got to be authentic in your life. If you--if you really want to be happy, if you want that moment of serenity where you can just deeply exhale and go This is who I am. This is fine. At some point, you need to come out. And that’s a hard thing to say to people because based on people’s life experiences, it might be difficult. You might think that people in your life will reject you. You could lose your job. You might be in danger depending on the environment that you’re in. But I just say you need to do everything you can to get to a place where you can be who you are, and you have people in your life that love you for that person. Because when you say, “You know what? It’s fine. I--I can just get on with it. It’s okay as it is even if I’m lying about this one thing,” it--it’s not. So I--you know, it’s hard, and that’s the thing. It--It’s so easy to say, “Just come out! That’s the answer. It will be fine.” And I think we both know that’s not how it works. But y--you just have to. You know, it was the struggle for me for 27 years. People look at me and they’re like, okay. I’m a--a white, able-bodied gayboy from a relatively middle class background that now, age 27, has this incredibly successful career in life, and it was still torture for me. So, you know, if it was this hard for me, then you can’t imagine how hard it would be for everyone else.
I think this is the part that frustrates me most. Because I do believe that Dan was just on a verbal roll and was trying to flesh out multiple lines of thought at the same time and in the end just didn't manage it. He's acknowledging the dangers of coming out, he's acknowledging the fact that he did it from a place of privilege and knowing he'd get wide acceptance, he's acknowledging that you do need to be in a place where you can come out first. But I think what he doesn't acknowledge is that getting to that place is not just hard, for some people it's actually impossible. People who need that job they might lose or they'd be homeless, people who need the family support system for financial security or just their own mental health, people who can't get out of that dangerous position in life. I'm not angry or upset at Dan for what he's trying to say there, it's just a very idealistic view. I wish that he'd taken the time to also acknowledge people who need to find a way to be happy with themselves
within a closeted existence and not just make their whole life geared toward coming out.