4:00 "So from now on my username online is going to be Daniel Howell."
5:00 "As I said, this is just me changing my display name; the YT channel will always be danisnotonfire, whether I like it or not"
6:25 “'Can I call you 'the Big D’ said George. No."
-wow George I’m glad he’s back, life wasn’t the same without a weekly check in from George living his George life
06:55 “It’s funny because my family calls me Daniel. No one from my family calls me Dan. Or Danny.”
-interesting, but not a bad thing like I feel some people might run with it. My brother’s friends/etc and our parents call him a shortened version of his name and I’ve never once called him anything but his full name, and we’re close, so. Don't jump into the deep end just with that little tidbit, you might drown
7:35 (chat) What’s your fursona name?
"D-fizzle, I guess, I don’t know"
8:00 “Someone wise said to me: You are happy when you feel like you’re being authentic, so if you know who you are on the inside and that is the who you are that you’re portraying on the outside, that’s one of the things that can make you feel at ease. Or rather, that if you feel like the person you’re portraying on the outside isn’t wholly reflecting who you are on the inside, that can be a source of stress and anxiety. And I’m sure lots of you probably feel like that now […].
And it’s that whole thing where you feel like ‘I need to be who I am’ and that could be coming out, it could be dyeing your hair, it could be becoming a hamster breeder and running away to Argentina.
[It’s important that all of you try to] aspire to communicate the person that you are on the inside. Which for me isn’t a big deal, but changing my name to Daniel Howell was just a tiny part of that. So yeah, that’s that."
9:30 (chat) 2017 Dan is my favourite Dan
“Same”
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10:00 smidge of piano playing I LOVE LAMP
“Uh oh Dan’s cheating the fingering”
“So I’ll get back to you in 10 years once I’ve learned that"
10:50 “Yes, no, the ship isn’t now ‘phaniel’ (laughs). Whatever."
26:25 “The thing is, with YT videos, it’s really tough for me ‘cause I worry so much. [he basically put out the quiz video on dinof as filler while freaking out about rebranding/moving/Australia].
It’s that thing where lots of people can enjoy lots of content but what makes me happy, what makes Daniel happy, is when I feel like I’m really really challenging myself and expressing myself, and doing something that I feel is original to me and not just any kind of light entertainment that anyone could make. And I know that that’s bad in the sense that there’s so many things I could do that people would just enjoy [...] but the whole thing with me is I roll around for 4 days [and whatever comes out at the end], at some point I felt like it was something personal to me that I wanted to express."
28:15 "When I get back from Orlando, I’ll do some deep introspective pondering and I do want to make it a goal that more content on my YT channel is good. Stuff that you go, ‘damn that was some good content.’”
29:05 “The thing is, when I’m a YTer and I’ve got this kind of established community of lovely, intelligent, kind, supportive, talented people with great taste, just the best taste on the internet, I feel like it’s a big deal to change anything. Because people like watching the Dan videos, and if something changes, then it’s like [oh no change is scary], but personally in your lives change can be inspiring.”
29:45 “Sometimes you do things that would make you less comfortable. It’s that whole ‘living vs existing’ thing. It’s like, what is ‘having everything you need and being comfortable and being content moment to moment’ vs really—"
"Deep down I’m somebody that craves that challenge and I feel like I need to be provoked a bit, so maybe stuff like that’s important, even if it causes adversity in the meanwhile"
30:55 (chat) Marry Owen Jones
“I think he has a boyfriend, I’m not sure."
33:25 (chat) Dan for Prime Minister so we have better school lives
“Maybe. I have too many skeletons in my closet."
34:35 “You’ll see [more of the apartment] in exposing videos that Phil shoots of me without me looking up"
35:10 “I could be about that, but I feel like mentally I need to be in a different place [to be more casual or shit-posty on his side channel the way other YTers are]. It’s scary.”
42:17 "'Horse' said Tommy. Yup, horse is coming, Tom. Don’t worry, you’re going to get that horse action that you crave. Among other things."
-well all I’m craving now is a ship name for George and Tommy. Teorge. Gommy?
45:15 (after music talk) “YTers, it’s very hard, because what people want is lots of stuff all the time, and music artists get to spend like 2 years doing an album that then blesses you forever. And I’m not saying that’s what I want to do, it’s about me just finding that sweet spot where I’m happy with the content that I’m making, I think it’s good, and then I’m also not starving everybody to death."
46:50 “Tell you what, we saw Troye [at Amplify] and had a little catch-up chat very briefly. I was like, ’sorry to just like disgrace your existence with my ugly self in your presence’"
51:25 “My kind of inspiration for dinof, what I need is time and space because I’m an introvert. So even if I’ve been on holiday with a bunch of people, that will kind of stress me out a bit."
"Because what I need in order to be creative and calm down is just to be alone in a quiet place."
52:30 "I’m just not a good YTer in that sense. Some people might just be much more functional people that don’t have to deal with all the mental health issues. Until I make changes in my life as I go along, just constantly trying to make things better for who I am, what I’m like, this is just how it works. So for you, who are used to all these other YTers, I’m sorry that I’m not a better YTer, but it’s just the struggle."
"There’s so many things that I know that I should be doing, it’s just hard to do.”
"These last couple years, they’ve been so busy, and it’s been great, these last two years. They’ve definitely been the best years of my life, just with all of the great success and amazing times me, and Phil, have had, really connecting with you guys. And now it’s a time to kind of sit back and breathe. Where I shouldn’t have agreed to going to all of these events, cause honestly— (laughs).
‘Phil and I’. Look. (laughs)."
-I'm really glad he's making all these changes at his own pace and on his own terms and not feeling the need to be defensive about it, he's just laying it the fuck out here so simply and I'm not the most outwardly sentimental person, ew emotions, but things are happening in my heart rn over all of this
55:45 (chat) Have you watched Line of Duty?
“No, Andrew. But everyone I know keeps telling me to, and now you have Andrew, so it’ll be the next show that I'll watch."
-George, Tommy, Steven, Andrew. why does it suddenly reek of Axe/Lynx body spray in here
55:55 (chat) Doggo please
“Not yet. Still renting. Renting is bad” etc.
“So Phil and I can’t get a dog yet, ‘cause it’s not a dog-friendly landlord and all that. A dog would be good. Phil’s obsessed with a corgi. So, brace for that, who knows. Or maybe it will be an ugly mongrel that we adopt, that was like the first dog that my family got, a completely unfunctional mongrel."
56:50 "London is very expensive, like oh my god. Like no one can buy a house, no young people. The only people that can buy houses in London are like doctors or 50-year olds that have been saving up. It's challenging."
58:10 "after Orlando I’ll make a [dinof] video”
"Thank you to everybody who was kind about yesterday. I had no idea what to expect."
"Everyone was being almost too sincere and supportive because you know, it’s not a big deal. It's still danisnotonfire."
"So thanks. As always, bear with me on this journey of life and YT. I have no idea what I’m doing. It’s just a constant struggle. There will be new YT videos at some point. What will it be? Oh god, what am I doing? With my life? I don't even know, I’ve just been thinking about this book I’ve been writing with Phil and this stage show for so long and now.. What is it all about?”
also you all seem nice and awesome so yer 
. it was bothering me the whole time because I couldn't figure out what his whole set up reminded me of. Dan's a secret Trekkie confirmed.
just depends on the 'circles' around fandoms. and yt creates just a very young circle on first glance. (man I miss the HP fandom..cause after the circle fell apart, it sure is kinda lonely just floating around.. nostalgia)
], in Asia, New Zealand, so yeah."
