Hello, yet another lost 25yo over here!
I've been a broad viewer of British YT since 2012 but truly fell down the D&P rabbit hole in 2015 in my post-uni graduation lost af phase when Dan would deliciously verbalise all my existential struggles and Phil would bring me back up again. They really are a perfect balance. I'm a longtime lurker from before the IDB days and survived the shift but drifted away a couple of years ago. I still followed Dan and Phil on everything and would watch any videos that jumped out at me but my investment definitely waned. I think after I got over the initial thrill of are they/aren't they and rabidly consuming any and all information/theories I could (why didn't I study that hard for the final exams I'd just completed

) I eventually figured they didn't intend on ever giving a concrete answer, nor was I owed/right to expect one. After I'd accepted that I was just generally happy for them and knowing that they had each other in whatever form of enduring relationship and I let them be. I don't believe in much but I never lost faith in them haha.
And thennnnnn BIG hit and it was devastating but hopeful and inspiring and everything else that everybody has already said and all the genuine care and fond I had for them came rushing back and I came here to (surreptitiously) celebrate with everyone and still haven't gotten over it. I'm in a similar state of limbo that I was in 2015 which is apparently the perfect environment to get in way too deep, but like
livoy said it has been so fun catching up on the last few years and watching the last month unfold whilst following the genuinely thought provoking discussions and perspectives here. I'm much more of an absorber than a project-er and prefer to sit back and observe/listen to everyone else but I would like to have the confidence to chime in sometimes.
This was long but thank you
plastictrees (how do you tag oh well) for asking the right question at the right time, I am in the exact same position!
