obvsly wrote: Mon Jul 02, 2018 2:47 am
I'm really sorry about your experience,
@sparkle. That really sucks. I would also love to hear more about your tattoo idea. Did you already have the design?
ratlad wrote: Mon Jul 02, 2018 2:44 am
@sparkle i'm sorry to hear that and it's horrible that you've experienced it, i hope you're alright and i hope that scumbag gets what he deserves and more.
KatjaZoe wrote: Sun Jul 01, 2018 11:55 pm
also
@sparkle really curious what your idea for your tattoo is
sonicgreen wrote: Sun Jul 01, 2018 11:51 pm
Sparkle, oh my god. I hate that you had to experience that. I hope you’re okay, that sounds like a nightmare and I hope you and your girlfriend aren’t shaken by it for too long. I’m so sorry. Escapism is good, and a dnp binge is always nice.
The tattoo is exciting though, please post a pic or something when you get it. Is this your first deppy tattoo?
Firstly; genuinely thank you to all of you

I'm okay, like it was scary but while it was happening (my girlfriend was amazing) I managed to get a really good look at him and his dog and I made an effort to remember every tiny little detail so when we called the police (who were great about the whole thing) we had a LOT of information to give them. My dad works for the police so when I told him what had happened he told me what I could expect and was really reassuring. Basically, even if nothing comes of it which is sadly likely, its recorded so if it happens again we have a crime number. I also refuse to stand for that shit from anyone because the fact I've got a girlfriend is like the least insulting thing you could say bout me. The SADDEST part is that he likely clocked we were together when I moved to the other side of her and held her hand tightly because of how scared of his dog I was before he came up to us.
Secondly; my tattoo idea

it'll be my 4th tattoo but my first that is 'a reference' I guess. The idea sort of popped into my head after toying around with the sentiment for a few weeks and its so damn perfect that as soon as I know my days off I'm going to go and get it did.
I'm thinking of something along the lines of traditional/neo-traditional, which are my two favourite styles of tattooing and hold up really well because of how bold they are.
So what I want is a traditional-style heart like this, similar to the one in the middle that says 'no scrubs' but with a frilled border like the one that says 'go away' -
surround by a few traditional flowers at the bottom like this -
I want the heart to be blue (my fave colour) and the details of the flowers to be in predominantly pink and yellow (yes deliberately because its the pan pride flag, even though im not a huge fan of labels it works with the next bit). Inside the heart I want it to say 'Live Your Truth' which is undeniably directly inspired from Dans video.
I want this phrase for a few reasons; firstly because I am becoming more interested in the philosophical concept of Authenticity and i've been reading a lot around the topic (someone tell me how to pronounce Neitzsche plz i'm not German lol this is like how I have a sociology degree but can't spell bourgeoisie) because I like the idea of having a 'true' self. Related to this is a very strong feeling that I give too much of myself to others, and to what others think of me. Its something I'm working on in therapy but I care so much about how people perceive me, despite trying very hard to do the opposite. I've sort of had the epiphany that I'm constantly held back by what I think others will think of me and the final straw was when my mum told me that my entire family are ashamed of me for NOT taking a £30k a year job in London, despite me literally crying and saying that my mental health was more important (which it is, it wasn't for sale at £14k, its not for sale at 30 either). Its kinda been the last thing for me because my family hate tattoos but if they think i'm a disappointment anyway, who the fuck cares? Why should I live my life to their standards?
Secondly, that video, for however much some people think its pretentious waffle, actually really helped me. I've been on a bit of a mission this year to become the best version of myself, completely independent of Dan expressing the same sentiment, and everything he said in the video I was like 'same bro'. I'm trying really, really hard to do things for me and its so difficult, but its one step at a time and I like myself much more now than I did at the start of the year. I'm trying to love and accept every part of me, which is really fucking hard actually. But basically every sentiment he expressed in that video is something that really touched me and has inspired me.
Thirdly, I'm proud of who I'm becoming by being true to myself. I think I'm interesting? Like I want the pan pride colours to symbolise that I AM proud of who I am. On one hand, I dont want to label myself as pansexual for many reasons, but on the other hand the connotations of pride colours is one that I think fits well when a small part of me still doubts my decision to just live my life out and about as a queer person.
And finally (Sorry for the essay, promise i'm not Dan in disguise), related to the last point, I just fucking want it. I'm trying to lead with that more in my life, like 'im going to do x because I want to' and I'm so fucking happy for it. Like my new job allows whatever colour hair you want, so I'm dyeing it back yellow because I LOVED my yellow hair. I'm actually much more interesting and content for this - I want to take up cycling so I'm looking into getting a bike, I want to get back into music so I've increased my data limit of my phone so I can stream more and i've listened to like 5 new albums in the last week, I'm becoming more interested in expressing myself through clothes so i'm dressing all weird and I LOVE it, I'm pursuing my active interest in post-structuralism/existentialism/nihilism and i'm more content because of that. So yeah. Waffle over.
I already have a tattoo on my upper left arm, so for the sake of balance, I want this on my upper right arm - directly in the middle of my bicep. This also allows me to extend the flowers as much as I want without being as limited as I would be on my forearm which is the placement I initially wanted. Its not going to be the most 'Dan and Phil' tattoo ever, which is good because if I unstan again that'll be awks, but its going to be enough for me.