hey y'all sorry to totally ignore the current topic

but...
I thought I would finally post something again and didn't know whether to put it here or in the TATINOF topic but I think it's less about TATINOF and more about them so here it goes
Anyhoo a few of you know that I was going to post about my experience of meeting D&P and the aftermath and I basically kept putting it off mainly due to the fact that I was angry....like pretty much rage style (I literally never get angry however the few times I have it's been full on Hulk style)
luckily that feeling has passed now lol.
so yeah I don't want to make this a ridiculously long post (edit: it is a long post) so I shall do what I used to do on GG and bullet point that shit
- I met D&P with Human and missemma whilst we were in New York
- I am horrifically awkward with new people and will tend to be almost rude on a first meeting unless I've had a couple of drinks
- This proven by the first thing me saying to Phil "you look cold" in a way that could be construed as "you look like f*cking sh*t" (why am i like this?)
- and then proceeded that weather conversation and when human said me and her had got burnt Dan said "relatable" I literally death stared him and then rolled my eyes and then said "why are we being so british and talking about the weather" in quite an exasberated tone. (seriously why am i like this?! lol)
- anyhoo phil was charming and sweet and I just kind of stared at Dan....like I was assessing him or something...which subconsciously I was looking back on it now
- bring on the token photos etc etc etc (hurrah for no hugging though)
so after this I felt all weird and shakey and suddenly though oh my god am i fangirling right now...but i realised it was something else but couldn't put my finger on it...
we then saw the show and though hurrah fabulous alcohol dancing singing mess. I kind of pushed the weird thoughts to the back of my head and very much enjoyed the show.
then me and human went to Boston and the thoughts all came flooding back as soon as I saw Dan come onto the stage. It was loud. It was packed. in my opinion it was waaaaay louder than New York and definitely more busy (a true sold out show) and for a split second I saw this fear in Dan's eyes and then *snap* it was gone and the show continued....however it was so polished....like too polished...almost like they were trying for every single thing to be perfect and i started to get restless and almost pissed off. after the show me and human drank more and I felt myself getting angrier and angrier (again I apologise human so so much! I had to inform her that it wasn't her causing my weird mood!)
And then I finally realised what it was that bothered me. Don’t get me wrong I know that the characters D&P portray in videos and liveshows and at TATINOF are just that - characters of themselves. It’s their brand and that’s fine - I enjoy it - why else would I be subscribed and fly over 3000 miles to see them...in two different states. However for some reason it reeeeeeeeeeeally grated on me seeing just how different Dan is in person. He was quiet, awkward, almost backing away - such a huge difference to how he acts at organised meet and greets.
Now I feel bad for not mentioning Phil until now but that’s because I can’t really say anything bad about him. He was sweet and warm and even with my opening half insult in our meeting just a nice guy.
So basically I pretty much had a rage fest regarding the fact that I thought Dan is ridiculously fake and not himself and I basically lost sleep over it
Fast forward almost a week later and I had some sort of epiphany and feel like a bit of a shit for being so angry. I basically met Dan and Phil. Like the actual Daniel and Philip. No bright lights, no screaming and crying girls, no paying over $100 for the pleasure. Because it was so random and not organised it put them on the spot (I kinda feel a bit guilty about this but meh) and they couldn’t get their “game faces” on so just had a normal conversation with three women (aside from Dan’s “relatable” comment but I guess my death stare curbed that lol) they didn’t even ask if we wanted photos etc...we just chatted and it was missemma who actually prompted them and i was a bit like “oh yeah lol”
So I guess my point is.....is there a point to this? Im still trying to work that out.....but i think the gist of it is that it reminded me that they are just two normal guys and that the whole thing of Dan saying he is awkward etc isn’t a load of crap coz my god the vibes off that boy was just....yeah. So I have to give them both maaajor kudos for embarking on this huuuuuge tour and doing all the stuff they have to do....I am interested in to how this will change them because honestly I think it will change them A LOT.
As a final thought...I am someone who has shipped them - main reason literally being that I hope they are together because fuck spending literally every moment with one person for 6 years and not being in love (that’s a very condensed conclusion of my reasoning btw) however interestingly missemma asked me after meeting them “so do you think they’re together after meeting them” and I suddenly had to stop in my tracks (literally) and said “.....no” was really odd. However i put this down to not having that at the fore front of my brain when talking to them...maybe....I have no fricking idea tbh lol
So there we go....god what a shit post...it’s kind of nice to write it all down though tbh but goodness knows what you guys are gonna think and what human and missemma are going to think because I kind of haven’t even told them properly what my opinions were....and I think they’re vastly different from theirs but hey that’s a good thing I think...
So there we have it....carry on as normal kids
P.s did you see how I totally gave up subconsciously on the bullet pointing and just went full blown rant? Haha! #sorrynotsorry
P.p.s I am not trying to diss anyone who has paid for M&G so sorry if it came across like that - i personally have NEVER paid for a M&G with anyone and don’t believe in doing so.....especially after this experience....